I had surgery a year ago but still feel no closer to accepting the problems I have been left with.
I believed my surgeon, Julian Stevens at Moorfields eye hospital, when he told me that I was a suitable candidate for laser surgery, despite that I had dry eyes, a low tear film and MGD!
Looking back now I wonder how I could possibly have just accepted the surgeon's opinion. I trusted him to give me all the facts, openly discuss the problems that may occur and tell me if I was taking a risk, but clearly this is not the way the industry works!
Post surgery my body went in to shock and I immediately suffered chronic dry eyes, and terrible floaters. I am also struggling to deal with burning eyes and blurred vision.
I have struggled for a year now to come to terms with this, but really need the support of others who understand how this has made me feel. I have spent hours chatting to all my friends and family but it is difficult for them to fully understand the impact this has had on my life.
I am reminded of the bad decision I made every second of my day, it is only when I get to bed at night that I finally relax, but in the morning it starts all over again!
I am a mother of three small children and somehow need to find a way of dealing with this. I am so angry with the industry, as I know you all are, that allows this to happen.
When I asked Mr Stevens why he thought I was a suitable candidate, his response was that if he had said no to me he would have to say no to half of the people who walk through his door! Clearly people of my age who are becoming intolerant of contact lenses, look for an alternative to wearing glasses full time - but how many in this group are offered surgery and end up with life changing complications because of it?
I am so angry that we are given the go ahead and not made fully aware that since our eyes are not completely healthy we are taking a risk! I am yet to get any surgeon to admit to this, but from what I have read now I cannot believe this is not the case!
I would love to hear from others in a similar situation as I am hoping that through supporting each other we may be able to rebuild our lives and learn to live again.
I look forward to hearing from you. Many thanks, Debs.